premature retirement

will i opt for an early retirement? Tomorrow, friday 25th of May..it's going to be school holiday again...hoooray..am i happy? words just can't describe, it means, no more waking up as early as 5 am before heading for the 45 mins of journey. to be frank i am not extremely happy at the new working place. but i endure it, thinking God has planned it for me...so i must accept the fate. but every single morning i would always pray for a transfer, praying "please let me out of the school".. there is nothing to hate actually, the colleagues are great and fun, the students are tolerable.. but i just don't have the heart to continue working. but the problem is, it is not easy to suddenly, resign..there are tons of things to think about especially of the family economy, and for my personal financial affairs. will i be contented with the allowances provided by the husband? how to put aside some of the husband's money to buy my favourite things or to indulge in whatever crazy food whenever i have the craving..can i fork out the "kitchen money" to indulge on my favourite hobbies - buying expensive foreign novels and imported magazines? will i ever have the courage to suddenly say - alright i have enough..i quit..!!!

the 4 series - life at 40s

it was kind of funny when i visited a doctor recently for my terrible headache. the young doc told me it was due to my blood pressure..a bit at the border. he said now i'm in the 4series..emm..if i am a car, which type i should be...perhaps the BMW..

imagine i'm that sleek dark blue BMW..i would be fancied by many. when i pass by, i would be envied or received the "wow'...do i want to experience that/

no, thank you..as i'm well into the 40s, i feel really great..everything is going smoothly..the children are well, the financial part is okay..job security is established. so, what to do with life at 40? i'm no enjoying a quite life..not too fancy..apart from getting fit with my aerobic sessions, i'm trying to be closer to the Almighty, i realize that after upgrading my academic qualification, i'm a bit mellow, i see things differently..extremely patient with others, i am able to see things positively, and yes, i think i already there, i've achieved the highest level of Maslow's hierarcy of needs.. i've achieved self-actualisation.

even though, nothing change in career..i can see the changes in my behaviour..as learning is defined as a change in learners' behaviour, i can confirm that yes, indeed i've learnt..i've learnt to be a better person, that alone should make me a humble one.

regards
zahiah