premature retirement

will i opt for an early retirement? Tomorrow, friday 25th of May..it's going to be school holiday again...hoooray..am i happy? words just can't describe, it means, no more waking up as early as 5 am before heading for the 45 mins of journey. to be frank i am not extremely happy at the new working place. but i endure it, thinking God has planned it for me...so i must accept the fate. but every single morning i would always pray for a transfer, praying "please let me out of the school".. there is nothing to hate actually, the colleagues are great and fun, the students are tolerable.. but i just don't have the heart to continue working. but the problem is, it is not easy to suddenly, resign..there are tons of things to think about especially of the family economy, and for my personal financial affairs. will i be contented with the allowances provided by the husband? how to put aside some of the husband's money to buy my favourite things or to indulge in whatever crazy food whenever i have the craving..can i fork out the "kitchen money" to indulge on my favourite hobbies - buying expensive foreign novels and imported magazines? will i ever have the courage to suddenly say - alright i have enough..i quit..!!!